静静的

今天的我，只想静静的在家休息。不用动脑筋，不用开口说话，让音乐，歌声，融入我的心。

平时不好听的歌，现在听着听着不觉得很难听了。

希望我今晚能十点上床睡觉。真的真的很想休息，虽然说我昨晚没有睡不好，可是也没有睡得很好。

最近生活过得很充实，也很忙啦。换了公司，一件很忙碌的公司。希望是过渡期，我要快点掌握我所要做的工作，我才不会被淘汰。

你们也加油哦！！！

未久的文章

已经有半年没有写写心声了。

不写的原因是因为我还没有写就已经有点伤感。在新加坡就好像没有生命，上班，回家，睡觉。

我在公司的工作都不压力，放心。公司的人也对我很好，只是公司和家的距离真的有点远。。。每天640am起床，9点到公司。6点下班，745pm到家。 休息一下，8点洗澡。早睡的话，10点上床睡觉。其实有时真的很寂寞。有时回到家，屋主的孩子有呱哩呱叫。。。真的有点烦。。。

我真的没有想象中坚强，我真的不能跟人比。有时我还是会想家，有什么不愉快可以跟妈妈说。。。每天回到家，就有热腾腾的饭菜。。。吃得很健康。。。我真的觉得现在的我不比以前。。。

第一，健康问题。
第二，担心家里（远水救不了近火）。
第三，担心钱财的问题。
第四，我已经变得比较感性了。

毕竟离开温暖的家，是我自己的选择。我选的路，我就要自己走下去。我不懂我会不会有回家的一天，不过我觉得我是不会那么容易认输。可能我天生是依赖性的吧，不是独立的。

有时真的觉得以前的我真的不知足，没有好好的孝顺父母，疼爱我的弟弟。现在没有他们在身边真的想孝顺都没有机会。

现在没一次跟父母讲电话，在关之前都很想说：妈，我爱你！爸，我爱你！可是到现在都还没说出口。请老天爷，让他们看着我们长大，让我们好好的孝顺他们，才让他们安祥的走。。。不要让我和弟弟后悔一生。

至于弟弟，以前爽爽就叫弟弟一声。弟弟就会问：什么？有时我们读书读到夜了，妈妈又睡了，弟弟就会怂恿我煮泡面，我们一人一半。。。 现在煮泡面，要自己一个人吃完。

朋友，在这好像除了同事，就只有智彦一位朋友。找来找去还是只有他。。。而且我只有星期六或日才会看到他。

总而言之，离乡背井是这样的。。。 已经半年了，我还是还没有痊愈。

新加坡的日子

是时候宣布“ 我已经在新加坡一个月了！！！”


有想念我吗？

其实也没有什么不舍得。。。跟在槟城工作没什么两样。。。 只是没有妈妈的拿手小菜，美味又热热的汤， 没有新鲜的鱼。。。没有妈妈和弟弟的影子。。。

 不过赚新币真的不错啦。。。希望能储蓄多多钱回乡。。。

回想当初来新加坡应征几次是值得的。。。

30/9 在槟城做工的最后一天，真的玩到天亮。。。 ITW的同事帮我庆祝生日，然后就是大学同学。。。 其实真的很感动。。。

1/10 就来新加坡了。。。(看到爸爸依依不舍的脸孔，真的很伤心）

3/10 就上班了。。。第一天上班，拿了kelvin的手机，上半的路途，一直googlemap 安全的到公司。。。下班时，kelvin的手机没电了。。。 我就不小心迷路了。。。上错巴士弄到我8点多才到家。。。超级累！！！

第二天上班，kelvin不放心就陪我去上班。。。 好幸福哦。。。

在公司，没有人欺负我。放心！只不过要做的东西很多。不过还好啦，最重要心灵上没有人欺负我哦。

前一两个星期，真的很累因为不习惯一天到晚一直走走走。。。每天下班了就去找kelvin吃晚餐直到我subscribe boandband.

然后就要忙毕业的事。。。

生活过得很充实因为24小时真的不够我用。。。

不过有kelvin的陪伴，真的什么都不用怕。。。（不好意思，不要冷到）


现在一个月了，真的有点习惯了。。。放心吧。。。 我会想念槟城的朋友的。。。
希望每次回去都能看到你们每一个。。。

Heading to Singapore

I will be heading to Singapore within 3 days~~~ Those couldnt make it to send me off, i am going to miss u guys.

There are a lot of reasons that i wan to work in Singapore.
1. Currency
2. Currency(give my family more money)
3. Kelvin ( it's time to enter another level of r/s )
4. Kelvin's Family ( Don't want to be too close to them )


There are a lot of things that i need to pack. it is like moving house. blanket and bedsheet also take....
Luckily kelvin came back and help me to export some of my clothes to Singapore already. Currently it is in his wardrobe.

I will be working in Bedok, Singapore as account assistant. But stay in Jurong which takes 1.5 hours to and from work everyday. y? because have to stay near Kelvin so that he would be able to take care of me. But i will change my accommodation or job very soon so that it could be nearer.

I am going to miss my family very much. I will be alone and have to be independent in Singapore. I will give u all my SG number when i get 1. C from my fb o~

Special thanks to those close friends~
For those who make it to meet up before i go SG, really appreciate abt it
For those who cant make it, " we shall meet next year during cny "

hahahahahah!

can always contact me through phone, facebook or msn de... don feel sad la.

don forget to send an invitation card if any of u r getting married o~~~

goodbye, my friend~

will inform in facebook whenever i am bk to Malaysia.

Photos & Friends

have u ever count the number of photos that u took with your friends?

if it is a group then hw many photos in a group? if individual, then hw many photos that u took with he or she?

I have jz counted the photos that i took with my friends, try to guess that who is the one?

as i am expected, B2G with total of 2261 pics ( Exclude cny pic 2011 ) and over 10 albums in 1 year~


Really much memories with B2G, always hang together, never left out anybody~
12th of Feb 2010 was our establishment.
always do last minutes work with excellent result ( specially group assignment )
do coursework together, copy each other work ( ok, REFER )
go here n there together such as bukit merah for twice, Sunway carnival once
our famous place is nt cinema, but REDBOX and NEWAY
Practice singing together, gone up on stage for twice.
always do video for our assignments

most crazy moment is we visit malls for abt 12 times during last Prom night. Purpose? find suitable dress for our performance. Penang has 4 big malls such as Gurney, Prangin mall, Queensbay, Bukit Jambul. So, we visit 4 times for 1 mall averagely.

We've together for all the moments. always stick together during college time. see 1 of us then will have another 3 at the same place.

after we have discovered kw looks like Donnie yen, then we will visit cinema whenever Donnie yen's movies release.

Went out to gurney, just to c Charmaine Sheh and so crazy that ask fong bou bou to take pic with us.

went to hotel visit. ( Oh ya, wonder when will we really have an apartment stay. we've been talking abt this for 1 year d ) hotel visit is go to hotel and walk walk but never get the chance to enter hotel room because hotel rooms need money~


There are a lot of memories that really unforgetable. Wonder what wil happen to us in future~


Hope that Really Friends Forever.

FOREVER 5!!!

Work Life

i am so tired!!!! Really study is better than work!


i think i might change to other department or other company after 4 months.

i tak boleh tahan ppl that is so fake and politics around me.

Ming said : i think u better change company after 4 months. otherwise u will get old faster coz everyday tiok kek.

which i think i am agree about it.

really will get old faster due to emotionally unstable for a long period. and i am the one who do not know how to defend.

They employ me is to reply me with the pregnant woman. then another permanent came in 2 weeks after i work. she is new and u expect her to b like the pregnant woman? then u expect me to knw all the things that need to be done for abt 2 months when u don teach me more?

really don ever blame me~ 

The permanent were so fake. always take over my job. " u have so many things to do d, then i gt not much to things to do!!!!" when manager and pregnant woman is around then u like very good. but when they were not around then u ask me to do this and that.


BUTT IS TOO HEAVY
even when we both learn things from the pregnant woman, i sit beside the pregnant woman and she sit beside me. then the pregnant woman print things out and we need to go and take it as the pregnant woman sit inside. then u sit at outside, can just go and take but ur butt is so heavy until give me way to go out  and take the paper. wah! really tak boleh tahan.

Then when u wan to go and find anybody, u can just call or go down ma. noneed to do all sort of small action. ppl pregnant also go here and there. then u go to find ppl, u need to ask us who went out just now whether tht person is there o nt. " UR BUTT IS TOO HEAVY UNTIL CANNT WORK HIOR! "

SLOW LEARNER 
everytime also need to print screen and print all the paper out. always refer when need to run things out. Waste company's paper! then kesi kesi ask me hw to do it when she forgot hw to do. then i will always ask why first before i help her.



TRAINEE'S FAULT
Everything also trainee's fault. u all can not do wrong one. then knew that is nt trainee's fault d, still wan to accuse me. U gave me wrong info then i key in wrongly then is my fault la. when u gave me info, u will always say " follow wat i wrote". so i follow, and i am new, u got so many code then u expect me to remember it all? when i wan to note down then u said noneed 1, when u do longer time then u will know. then when i saw that it is nt my fault, i never accuse u in front of manager. i just pass the thing to u and let u c that it is your fault then u realise it. i give u face is because of u r senior. but when u ask the "butt too heavy" to key in then u still say tht it is my fault. wat the!  put paper at the wrong file, also is my fault. i never touch the paper also. then write at the wrong place also is my fault which is nt my hand writing.

when i do wrong then your tone is higher, then the "butt too heavy" do wrong, u talk nicely to her and ask her nt to do wrong!!!!

wat is going on in this world?!!!!!


i am nt a threat for u all but y u wan to attack me?

Honesty

i think i know wat did i care so much d.

"HONESTY"


maybe it is because of they said if got anything can always say out. then they said is because of we didnt ask then they didnt tell. if we ask then they will tell honestly. but when we ask more, they kept hiding from us. Now Question is back to" none of my business" again.


y would u wan to ask so much which ppl don really wan to tell u?
: Because i care about them

no, this is called Kaypo. u kaypo so much then make yourself so miserable.
: True! i am really miserable now~ has been stuck with this matter for quite sometimes and think abt it everyday.

So, don care so much. mb u think that this is care but for them, this might over the limit.
: mb also, coz this is still none of my business. i cant assume that they tell me honestly for all the thing that i ask. honest does not apply to everyone, and everything.

i mau siao liao!!!! sot d! y am i so stubborn abt it ler? i really don understand myself.

LET IT GO!

Friendship

Friends that u r close to, don need to act gentle in front of them
friends that u r close to, don need to care abt your words
friends that u r close to, u may share anything with them
friends that u r close to, u noneed to b fake in front of them
Friends that u r clsoe to, u r true to them

Saw From FB jz now...

i have been thinking abt it long time ago. i had decided not to care abt it and try to forget it. but it pops up in my head all the time recently.

i thought about it everyday, every hour that i am free. think abt it more than my dear.

i thought of not to think abt it and let times passed and it fades away. but it doesnt work at all.

i knew that it is none of my business and i shd b happy abt it. and i really do. but wat i cant let go is i dono how to face it.

i told my consultant abt that, she said if this happens to her, she also will angry. because we were so close friends. and she knew that i really care abt this friendship. and i really true to them eventhough we seldom hth talk. after that, i think it again. i feel that wat she said abt me is quite true also.

i never tell kelvin or anyone abt it because i knew that they will just simply ask me nt to think too much abt it. it is nt a matter at all. i also knw abt it. but y i am still struggling abt it.

i met kelvin last weekend in malacca, and we have been discussing abt all the trouble that we faced. then i told him abt it. he said i have to choose 1 way. coz i was undecided.

According to him, i knew that it is none of my business and i shdnt sad or struggle abt it deep in my heart. but when i am persuading myself to let go, i feel that it is nt right and i really cant accept it. so i keep on struggle between one another. so he advice me to choose 1 side then i wont struggle anymore. but i am still undecided until now.

do i need to talk about it seriously? but there is not important at all isnt it? as it is none of my business. but if really talk, then i can trust all the words?

i really dono. when i feel that i am close with a person then i dono y somehow will feel that wat they said is true or fake. i am nt sure whether it is true o not.

As i said before, i learn something that i have learnt 4 years ago.
which is " you treat ppl as very good friend, doesnt mean that they will think the same".

i really don deserve to have a real close friendship? or am i too stubborn?
will the ending be the same like 4 years ago? shd i give up to search for real close friend? will we being separated in future? on of my friend said that, we will b separated and nt close after we step in to working life.

will this come true? or is it whether it will really come true one day but we were too naive to trust that we wont?

New Post = New beginning

it's been 5 month since my last post.

always lazy or have sth that i couldnt tell.

I consider as graduated since 7th of May ( the next day after my last paper )

now training at bayan lepas area as accountant. i learn new things each day. kind of excited. everyday think of wat will i learn next day.

it's been very miserable while finding jobs. really tire and exhausted. i really really hope that i am still studying.
you wan the company to confirm but and wan higher pay at the same time. but luckily, i went to interview 3 times, 3 times also get. 3 company also confirm me. but i chose the last 1.

1st, insurance ( really interested to be agent )
2nd, marketing company ( can earn more and practice my english. get to knw more ppl )
3rd, account assistant ( jz to find sth that is more related to my field study )


i am really interested in insurance but at the same time, i also tired of doing sales and marketing job. it is like i wake up early in the morning to do sales, come bk home also do sales. really don wan such life. last min change to find account job. many company called me for interview. but i couldnt arrange asap with them because my last paper is on fri. they called me on thu. it was impossible for me to go interview. i must b mugging at home until last min.
then my 1st int for accountant was on mon 9th of May, they confirmed me on mon too then i started to work on tue~

i realy don hope that my future's job will be accountant because i am nt major in acc then it is kind of waste for me to study finance.

My present company really nice~ i like it. my manager were kind to me, then nt much work for me to do as everyone is busy. i went to movie with other department's collegue on the 2nd day of work. a bit tired. but jz to mix around.

today, i felt that one of thecollegue don really like me~ haiz~ i also dono. but she is the most nt nice person in there lo. feels like talk less in front of her better. but don care la. as long as nt the same department. oh ya, ia mlucky enough that sit under air con, so i wont get cold easily in office. when i am free, i can go to pantry to make milo and drink it too. then everybody are willing to help me out. so far ok lo. sometimes ot. jz to fnish the work that has been given. it is nt compulsary to do ot. but i jz do lo.

i really wish to do long term with this company. i really learn a lot of things. i hope that i can handle many things in 1 year time then get promoted. wakakakakak. syok~~ so far like tht la...

jz report for work. everyday work, no stop.

Review of 2010

actually i got nth to review wor. mb i have short term memory. hahaha~


1. got my 1st international trip which is nt so far from Malaysia, Singapore. spent there for 6 days, from 3rd - 9th. whole trip was very nice, kelvin took me here n there, always take care of me. only 1 thing that is nt so nice in SG is i need to walk a lot~~!!!! then make me tired.

2. B2G establishment. 12th of Feb 2010. consists of me, zhen ying, kah wai and khai shean. nice combination. always do work, hang out together.

3. Bought my New hp- Yari on 9th of apr. hahaha! so nice. many hong kong drama got use ler. RM750 for the hp then 34 for 4gb memory card.

4. Went to langkawi with B2G mc froggy and mabel on 10th of May after exam. kind of boring in langkawi but good to shop for chocolate!!!!

5.  Celebrate my anniversary in penang while kelvin in SG. i did a video for him and he did a picture for me. hehehe. 

My 1st Anniversary Video for Kelvin

6. Started my online business on July, this 1 is really unexpected in my life. never thought abt it. i jz felt that it is nice to play and can earn some pocket money. but i didnt expect that i have a few box of stocks in my house.

7. I did another video for kelvin too as birthday present. Birthday Video For Kelvin

8. Went to Bukit Merah with B2G mc froggy. really fun!!!!! hahaha! but tired and also gone dark d.

9. My birthday!!!! Received 1 necklace from B2G mc froggy and 1 birthday cake which needed to be shared with another 2. hahaha! really appreciated hard work by ks n ying. coz only both of them planned.  then received 1 shirt and virgin certificate by tk, hong n ming. gonna receive another bday present from sweden, hahaha! i knew that yan will buy me sth 1.
the most happy is kelvin come bk to malaysia for my bday!!!! eventhough it was 3 days but i was really happy in my heart. bought a necklace from sg for me which cost him SGD 38.80. then mum give me money to dye hair and father reload credit for me. then kelvin's aunty treat me makan dinner. then his mum, aunty and grandma gave me an angpao of total RM200. hehehehe. i remembered that tk called me to wish me then my old friend teik loon called me too and we talked for abt 2 hours if not mistaken. i also received many fb wish and sms wishes from all my friends too. most importantly the 1st bday wish is from sweden by tung zhi yan. hahaha!

10. Did a singing performance with B2G mc froggy during prom. we have went to shopping malls in penang and shop for 11 times. crazy gang!!!!

11. Lastly, went to register my company and do company chop. never ever expect abt this too. but nw i have troubles to do account for my business d.


I knew that i seldom blog d. i knew that i have changed d. dono is good or bad.  but changes has been made. hahaha! i am sure that i will be better this year. jia you! have faith!


thanks to my family always support me, kelvin as my beloved, B2G as my friends, teik loon as my old friend, tk, hong, ming, yan, ck as my clhs friend, bee gaik and ming wah, as my ji mui and all of other friends.

Life's end for 2010 and Open for 2011!!!!

QQ Beauty Care

i never ever dream or think about doing business. finally went to register it last thu. but the ssm department couldnt give me on tht day. so i have to go to seberang jaya to get it. otherwise, need to wait til 21th of this month only can get.

a bit happy that i finally register my business. when i first get the certificate. i have 1 feeling. UNBELIEVABLE! really! who will expect me to start doing online business and finally register it. the world has too much uncertainty that make us do sth that we wouldnt believe.

the company name that i have registered is as the above title: " QQ Beauty Care ". it is all about beauty and care of our skin.

actually business registration fee is only RM70. then i went to do company chop which cost me rm19. wow....
then i bought papers and stamp pad, RM23.80.

when u play play time, u feel tht easy only. but this time cant play d. all the expenses need to be recorded. then need to buy anything that is needed for company purpose. really nt easy. mb it is easy for u, but nt me. i am thinking abt it only, already stress.worry that i couldnt do it. need to do account for my stuff ler.... sobsob... dono can o nt.

anyway, this is a good start. this is another turning point in my life.

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