Friendship

Friends that u r close to, don need to act gentle in front of them
friends that u r close to, don need to care abt your words
friends that u r close to, u may share anything with them
friends that u r close to, u noneed to b fake in front of them
Friends that u r clsoe to, u r true to them

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i have been thinking abt it long time ago. i had decided not to care abt it and try to forget it. but it pops up in my head all the time recently.

i thought about it everyday, every hour that i am free. think abt it more than my dear.

i thought of not to think abt it and let times passed and it fades away. but it doesnt work at all.

i knew that it is none of my business and i shd b happy abt it. and i really do. but wat i cant let go is i dono how to face it.

i told my consultant abt that, she said if this happens to her, she also will angry. because we were so close friends. and she knew that i really care abt this friendship. and i really true to them eventhough we seldom hth talk. after that, i think it again. i feel that wat she said abt me is quite true also.

i never tell kelvin or anyone abt it because i knew that they will just simply ask me nt to think too much abt it. it is nt a matter at all. i also knw abt it. but y i am still struggling abt it.

i met kelvin last weekend in malacca, and we have been discussing abt all the trouble that we faced. then i told him abt it. he said i have to choose 1 way. coz i was undecided.

According to him, i knew that it is none of my business and i shdnt sad or struggle abt it deep in my heart. but when i am persuading myself to let go, i feel that it is nt right and i really cant accept it. so i keep on struggle between one another. so he advice me to choose 1 side then i wont struggle anymore. but i am still undecided until now.

do i need to talk about it seriously? but there is not important at all isnt it? as it is none of my business. but if really talk, then i can trust all the words?

i really dono. when i feel that i am close with a person then i dono y somehow will feel that wat they said is true or fake. i am nt sure whether it is true o not.

As i said before, i learn something that i have learnt 4 years ago.
which is " you treat ppl as very good friend, doesnt mean that they will think the same".

i really don deserve to have a real close friendship? or am i too stubborn?
will the ending be the same like 4 years ago? shd i give up to search for real close friend? will we being separated in future? on of my friend said that, we will b separated and nt close after we step in to working life.

will this come true? or is it whether it will really come true one day but we were too naive to trust that we wont?