Worries.......

yesterday after i bk from carrefour and was at desmond's house coz his brother marry today and invite my father to go " lao tia meh " so go lo...

then i receive a msg which unexpected...

someone has alive....

when i open the msg, read it, my heart was cold for a while....

wan to reply but dono reply wat....

wat he said is right....

like wat i had thought....

long-distance really nt easy to walk...
as i have said very long time before...
i never trust long-distance can work...
even don encourage my friends to try...
but now because of someone gave me confident...
let me know that we can walk through...
let me know that i can trust in him and myself...

before i decide wan to change status.....
i have already thought abt it and also worry...
go around ask for advice...
of coz i only spot on those much more elder than me...
they shot me with 1 sentence...

" u never start, u dono the end. now havent start, u have already set the mind of sure end after not long". the start and the end, is not important but the process while both parties walk together, overcome everything together..."

since both parties already fall very deep, why not give both of us a chance to prove it...

after i have read the msg, i start to think...
if after wed, he decide nt to start, wat will happen to me?
i couldnt imagine also don dare to imagine.....

i told my father:

nvm la, if never start also ok la, sun qi zi ran...
at least we have been in love with each other before


my father shot me bk with ' this is jz to console urself '

it's true...but wat to do...

when i am nt ok, he ready, when i am ok d, he don have confident...

may be we have to walk like hw his best friend, cong and obs

i really scare if i really lose him....
< but if really really lost, i have got no choice... >




bg asked me a question this morning when i go to office:

is he worth for u to miss, think of, love, sacrifice, overcome fear, share happiness and sadness, feel uncertain abt future?
think b4 u answer...

worth, i have already overcome my fear, love, share everything with him....
ready to step in with an uncertain future....

if u both have the agreement then face it together with courage watever it comes...


so it's all abt the process again. haiz......

the most important in the relationship is TRUST

nvm la, everything will be clear after 3 days when he bk from genting. and mb we have to talk face to face to decide ler...
c la...

leave it to god...

father, i leave it all to u even i hope that the ending will be as wat i want.

wish that he can really enjoy his genting trip and take care of himself well, drink more otherwise will sick 1 lo.... syok syok get flu... haiz...
father, bless him to be healthier....

:) love you...