Meet him bk

jz nw went to facial n saw him...

b4 i reach there, i felt that i don wan to go...
i don wan to face him...

i scare sth bad will happen...

but at the same time, i really miss him very much...


when i reach there... i saw him...

i speechless... i jz look at him...(luckily he is doing mask)
my consultant n him really not used to silence...
whenever i never talk then they will feel weird...
so do him...
he always nt used to it...

then they asked me to talk...
but i really got nth to talk ma...
then i jz keep on look at him...

try to imagine la...
last time u was very close to a person... then one day, he told u that the best is try nt to contact him coz his gf don like...
so whenever u miss him then u will jz miss him n wan to contact him also don dare... scare will give him trouble...
b4 that, had a msg from his number asking who m i...

i knew that he wont do this kind of thing...
so in order nt to trouble him, then better don reply...
if he wan to contact, he will find a way..

then we lost contact for 10 months d...n finally meet bk...
when i saw him, only have a feeling of very very miss him... n i finally meet him bk...
he is jz in front of me...
a lot of thing to tell him, but dono start from where, also dono wat to do...
so jz look at him... c whether he change much o nt....

and after that, ur 1st word is :" u getting fat d!!!!"
hahahahaha... my open speech mostly is perli ppl 1...
i dono hw to use other method to say d...
i am like, i miss u but i don wan to let u knw directly...

after chat for sometimes, i still feel that we r nt like last time d...
but i massage for him la... then got a feeling of wan to fool him but feel like nt right and don dare...
 i used to kacau him de...

eventhough a bit kaku, i knw that if we continue contact, then we will b like last time 1...

i really miss him a lot...
he is always at the same place in my heart...
nobody can replace him...

Look for a star

just finish this movie...

this is a story abt one very very very rich guy met with one very very very poor girl

when they met, they never knw abt each other's background...

then they really in love...

the feelings when they together are sth that they never had b4.

 one day, the guy tell the girl that he is the rich guy that bought her whole hometown...
(the girl very hate the ppl who bought her hometown)

after that, they gone through their problems n plan to marry...
when there is a time that is very nice, then the shareholders of his company protest...
bcoz if the guy unfortunately get divorce then he has to give the girl part of his money n this would make the company has high risk...

to settle this problem, his mom come out with a marriage agreement which is if they divorce then the girl will nt ask any money from him...
the guy don wna to do this but he has to...

n they come to a very serious situation which is, they never talk when they met...

1 night, the guy approach the girl
he says: " don think abt the agreement can o nt?"
she says: " can"
" if u r nt billionaire, everything will b great"

they jz hug together n sleep...
but both of them never sleep...
the girl cried and the guy knew...


after sometimes, the guy went to c the girl, ask for engagement again...
the girl told him that she thought she can enter his life but actually she cant.
ppl will surely gossip abt her...
and abt the agreement,
love is abt 2 person...
she only love him, n so do he.
once involve agreement, it will have sth in the middle btw them...

and she rejected him...


after few days, he decided to go for tv show n confess...but the girl never show up...
after the show, he went bk to the place where he ask her to marry him...
they met n they agree to get married...
they girl said, " i m nt ready to enter ur world but i m ready to let u enter my world "




actually when i was watching, i thought abt my r/s...
felt so sad in the movie...
but friends, don worry... jz express nia... after that nth d...

Hardly breathe

1st time listen to ppl make me feel hardly breathe...

i really beh tong....


during discussion, when a friend has some ideas and wan to tell us....
he talk n talk n talk....then u will b thinking, "wat is the idea that u really mean?"
or mb u will think  " wat do u wan to tell? " or " where is the point?"
in a more rude way: " can u jz cut the crap and straight to the point? "


u even thought of block his words but at the same time, u hope that he can come to an end and say out the point...

but i can seriously tell u, u will feel hardly breathe to wait him to finish....

no matter wat u say, he will still ask u to continue listen then u will knw the point after he end.
but sometimes, more pathetic is tht, his listener cant get the point after he said so much...

really pathetic and feel sorry to myself....
hope tht he can change the way he talk...

Question

never ever wan to knw the answer bcoz it is no use anymore...
but stm, jz feels like wan to knw it...

but i still refuse to knw in the end...

i mean wat is the point after the truth has revealed??

 really caught me blur... like i'm in between of 2 dimension...

swt.... to myself...

Phone

my mum asked me, " with the advance technology that enable people to communicate through online, u can chat or talk through online, y u wan to use phone call? "

wat a gd question!
so my gd answer will be: " at least u got the attention from the other side if you use phone"

this is my opinion, i dono abt other ppl...

i think this is quite true...

any objection???
other than high cost...

pity to others...

jz cant help...


really nt suitable...


hope that i am robot...
yeah! cool, rite?!!!

Good!

got bk my dance d

after few days, the indian girl sms the malay girl that we dance bk like last time n wat we wan to do jz do...
when i heard abt it, i am quite syok lo...

then the malay girl asked me whether wan to join bk o nt...
actually i am sure that i will feel uncomfortable if join bk...
but i don wan the prom bcome indian's night...

and if audience c 3 performance with the same ppl, sure boring...

so jz join bk...but we don wna to tell her yt until she ask us again...

abt the costume, we will think abt it...
and we gonna change all the slow steps...
really beh tong...
last time use 3 days, so cincai do...
this time have 2 weeks...
hhaha!

then malay society wan to do 1nasional, so i join lo...
wear traditional then dono do wat...
but i m nt going to wear cheongsam, coz really nt nice...
mb i wear baju kurung o kebaya ( the best is kebaya, hehe...)

i think shd b enough d la... my friend invite me to do duet...
gatal gatal like wan to do...
but if do, then will b on stage for 3 times d wor...
scare audience will sien... hehe...

that 1 on hold 1st lo... o mb cancel.

most important is the dance... :)

no more asmara dana

we have been told to dance asmara dana for prom. it consists of 1malaysia theme because we have 4 indians, 1 malay and 1 chinese.

then nw we have been kicked out because this is a malay song and one of our member want to make it more indian abit and we don like it, specially me n the malay.
we wan to make it more modern.

the indians wan sanggul and a bunch of flowers on their hair...
we hate it!

and we think that the hair is nt an issue to b rise up lo...

we don need sanggul to dance 1...

then they jz come to us and kindly asked us, whether we wan to dance o t because we wan to set hair on tht day...
if we cannt then she can replace 2 girls to dance...

we never say anything abt it and even thought of hw to make our dance and appearance nice on tht day.. then she come up with this...

she asked the malay girl 3 times d.. then the malay really super tak syok d...
so she don wan... then after that of coz i also don wan...

then when the advisor complain that most is indian performance...
and they knew that our asmara dana is 1malaysia theme and very nice... but y nw all blacks...
then the indian girl say abt our hair lo...

the advisor said mz cancel some of the indian...
coz our principal said she don wan this year prom is indian night...

then the indian girl come to me and ask me again wan to join the dance bo...

like i got nobody wan then desperate to dance...
i jz say don wna...

told me that will replace 1 malay n 1 chinese bk wor...
sure cannt find 1
very hard to find chinese n malay wna to dance in our college 1...
in the end sure all blacks...

6 days of sweet sweet time

exclude 2 saturday = 6 days

spend time together for 5days...
hehe...

actually very happy abt it....

almost spend the whole day for 1st two days...

dono y i am very happy abt it and also want to spend more time with him...
before that, i am not like tht 1... never expect it...

then on my bday, i was busy until 6pm... after that jz go dinner and movie...

thu is the only day that we din meet, coz i have moon fest.

fri ler, go to work then meet yan, fook and seang long...
then dinner at little cottage...

after that we split to take my ic lo then only go prangin meet them...
actually he is busy de, to accompany his mom.
jz that i wan to acc yan to buy his hp as i promised...
but he don wan to leave me alone there...
i think he also wna to spend time with me de la...
hehe...
erm, we had a small quarrel...
last night, c him until 12sth...

barely can drive home...
after reach home, faster bath n wash face then lay on bed jor...
sms half way, asleep jor...

this whole week, i am very tired, always sleep late then wake up early. hw late ler?
at least 2sth then wake up at 7sth... everyday also like tht ler...
but i am happy. hehe...

then hior, today bo go airport c him leave...
hehe...
sure he very miss me and want me to go de...
but hior, i dono hw to go airport ma then it is nt gd to ask his parent to fetch me there...
so i ma jz say bo go lo...
i knw u wan me go de...
like tht la...

i am very happy yet busy and tired...

Birthday Present In Advance

today hior, went out with 3 hiao gong...
haha!
redbox lo... no place d...
then this time we did nt sien...
very high... sing until throat nt feel well...

then after that we walk a walk, then 3 of them told me  that they wan to present me a hp...
cost RM99 very cheap phone, nt stylish, jz basic phone...
of coz 'sao em hei ', shocked dao...
then they insist to buy for me, coz cant contact tiok me...

then i really stunned and very kam dong tht time....
i jz can say thank you and very kam dong de looked at them...

my new hp!!! love it!!!

then ler, is tk's time...
ming ask him wat he wan as bday present...
bcoz he might nt bk at the end of this year...
so jz buy now lo...
from bottle to bracelet, bracelet to pierce ear, pierce ear to belanja makan, then at the end buy sling bag for him...
RM89.90 o...
body glove de o...

then all of us head to cinema to watch the ugly truth.
nt bad o...
those who havent watch can go watch...

after that ler, go kim gary makan dinner and bk...

i am wondering since when all of us become so kang kai 1...
budget get higher jor...
cannt go down de wor...
geng~
shau ming said sth very correct " luckily he don have much close friends, abo sure pok kai..."
Ming, i agreed with u...
haahhaha!

wow, today bring RM100 out, finished jor...

my present so expensive, i also bu hao yi shi...
but since i accept le, jiu take care of it very well la...
very valuable de...
i will always bring along with me like u guys with me de...
i will treat it better than the hp that i buy in future...

zhi yan, theng koe, shau ming, chee hong, i love you guys very much!
very kam dong! n so sorry to let u all po fei le!!!

in redbox!

not ur skin, not ur blood

after bk form class, had lunch then go for dressing...

the doc is nt the 1 tht i wan to c...
is an indian lady...

then she saw my wound, tak boleh tahan...
wan to cut off all the pus layer...

then when she clean my wound, like nt her skin ( i knw it is nt her skin)
keep on 'lu3' (hokkien)
lu lai lu khi....

then she inject  Anaesthetic for me...
pain lo...
'cha jim cha chu'
then a, bleed ler...

the Anaesthetic a, make my leg look like pig's leg...
then the surgery begin....
cut a cut, then bleed a bleed...
but i don feel pain la...
then the whole part cut off jor...
jz left a very little bit de pus which cannt b taken out...
then a, i saw her took the blade, 'kao khi kao lok'
wow, like nt her skin....

then hior, she put bandage lo...
after she finish....
then i felt dizzy jor...blur jor...
then she let me drink sth very nice and also take strong pain killer...

then the most important is that i asked her when can c the dry skin...
the result is take 2 weeks...at least de o...

hope that faster get well and less scar la...
i think i have to wear black stoking for prom d...
hehe...

i blur until need my bro to hold me...
then after i bk home, i felt tired after i lay down on my bed...
n slept for more than 4 hrs...

faster get well~!!!

Another cut~~~

today cut again...
oh my...
when will it stop?!!!

really pain but still can stand la...

the doc like very happy to cut it and keep on cut n cut...
cut until i really don wna d, then i wish the pus level don out yet...
wow...
luckily no more... abo i die...

in order nt to waste my parent's money, tomoro i will have to let them cut again...
until it finish...
everyday tim....
i wan to siao liao...
y cant the layer out by itself?
haiz...
i told my mum that if she don accompany me to go clinic then i wont let them cut...
i dono y i need... haiz....

Small blade On my leg

jz nw went to clinic...
then the doc was very careful abt my wound...
we co-operated very well...
he was very takecare of my wounds...

then i suggest him to cut off the pus layer for me...
so he use a small blade coz cannt use scissor...( if he use scissor, i am sure don let )
then he jz start and my blood bleeded like wat only...
but of coz i try to wait him finish lo...
wow, he said tht i am very gd... coz i never tell him tht i am pain...
hahahaha! if it is nt very very pain until i wan to die, then i wont say 1...

nw i have to walk like org cacat d...
haiz...
i was so syok tht i can walk freely for 2 days...
nw have to bk to org cacat...

tomoro have to wash again...
another day have to wash the other wound....
the big wound cannt cut at all, coz it is very thin layer...
so have to use medicine to cure it nia...
but i think as long as my knee de ok d, then i don need to worry abt my walk o movement...
jz take care of my meal only...
and then i can start practice dance by the end of this month...
hehe...

faster get well!!!!!

u emo, i also emo...
u sad, i also sad...

wanted to help, but dono hw to help...

felt that i am kind of useless....

haiz....

wish that you r happy everyday!!!

Reconsidering abt 重出江湖

thought of after i recover will ride motor to college again but with security box.

today went to c doctor...

manatau i have to make the skin out then only can recover.
then they try to pile my pus skin out... but it sticks on my skin...

then they still try...
so i let them try lo... while i was super duper pain....

manatau, until certain level, i cannt d... have to stop ...
i was going to cry d...

then they jz wrap bk lo... tomoro go again...
hopefully all can take out once...

i cannt d...
i have to scream at here....

I WAS VERY VERY PAIN!!!!!!! NEVER PAIN LIKE THIS BEFORE!!!!
1st, pain dao i cannt tahan...
2nd, pain dao i was going to cry...
means super pain d...

then nw really don dare to say i am sure to ride bk motor...
hw shd i decide?

for me, drive car has a lot of inconvenient but can keep me safe from injury...
ride motor is the opposite lo...
haiz...
hw?
knew that u all sure ask me to drive car de....rite?

Snatch thief

wed met snatch thief and nw cant really do my stuff nicely... haiz...
mz make my timetable more pack d...
mz arrange bk my coursework and studies...
abo die...

ok, bk to snatch thief...

wed, after class went to work for 30 min then go bk.
snatched while on the way, at han chiang there...

lost everything jor...

wat is important is my 2hps lost jor.... my nice pic also....
haiz...

actually i wont fall and get hurt de... but i try to get bk...then i lose jor lo...
then got hurt jor...

ppl care abt my injury...

wat my mind was thinking is my hps, pencil box.
haiz...

then got 1 very kind hearted guy, lead me to police station and report then go gh clean up my injury...

abt 10sth ka reach home...

tht time, inform everybody that knew abt it from my bro...

then busy clean wound la
then tired d...

nw, everyday clean, then cant really do ny stuff...
haiz....
a bit sad...

i lost so many things make me more sad...

but i have decided to think from snatch thief side,
he will b very sad...
coz very happy then open my bag...
1st thing he saw is empty bottle...
2nd, pencil box...
3rd, hps...(think he will b a bit happy)
4th, my purse... sure happy to open up de... ( but only have rm23)
5th, atm card( if they have the device to break code, sure will happy. but all my atm de money finished liao lo)

really wan to ask them to give me bk, everything that they going to throw...
swt...
haha!
ok la, wish that i faster get well...
then i can wear nicely on my bday....(kelvin said de... coz he knew it)
wakakaka....
bday still have to wear normal, very sien de ma...
hehe...

Shake it!

i want to be drunk!!!!

i want to club and just dance!!!!


Shake it!!!

Shake it!!!

Shake it!!!


j-j-j-just dance!!!

hold me and love me...

oh ohh oh... show me wat i got...

boom boom boom!!! boom boom boom!!!

yo!!!

要做好人，不要做坏人。。。

好人

好人

好人

Bad feeling

last night, suddenly had bad feeling that i will cry on my bday...

i am so scare abt it...

i don wan any unhappy happen on me...

it's my bday... mz b very happy 1....

i am really scare abt it....
haiz....

hope this bad feeling wont come true........

Merdeka Concert

last night finished my merdeka concert in college...

i really enjoyed!!!

wat my job was represent chinese...
for cultural dress modeling...

my friend, thinagari asked us to do modeling at the 1st time...
manatau, she quit last minutes due to stupid reason...
so as promised, we jz do lo...

i dont really like my look in cheong sam...
nt really nice...

wat to do...
jz do it la... with vyn zen...
due to lack of practice, really nt so professional modelling lo...
all paiseh 1... then my partner also found in last minutes 1...

ok, then forget it...

after the modelling then i changed my costume...
wakakaka.... i like it!!!



really look hot and also...
compared with other singer...
i really look nice and prepared...

i was excited and also never scared...
i made it like my own concert...
jz tht majority of my fans are indians...
i used my stage fully...
walked near audience...




really big exploration!!!!
sth never expected,
MCs interviewed me after i sing... everybody said my voice is sweet even they dont really knw wat is the meaning of the song, but it was really great show!!!

i was really happy... but i don really belief it... whenever they said tht my singing is really nice and sweet and great then i will ask them... is tht really true?
because i knew that i am nt gd in singing 1...

got 1 kid (because we did invited orphan)came to me and said" sister, jz nw u sing very nice, i like it even i dono wat is the meaning"

wow, as kid will never lie de... they r so innocent... i really high dao... wakakakaka... they come to say byebye to me ler....
nw think bk also high dao....

anyway, really happy abt it...one more thing, they said that my costume matched with the song...

with pop king of STC

thanks to Ms. Victoria for giving me this chance and also encouraging me to take this challenge.