Work Life

i am so tired!!!! Really study is better than work!


i think i might change to other department or other company after 4 months.

i tak boleh tahan ppl that is so fake and politics around me.

Ming said : i think u better change company after 4 months. otherwise u will get old faster coz everyday tiok kek.

which i think i am agree about it.

really will get old faster due to emotionally unstable for a long period. and i am the one who do not know how to defend.

They employ me is to reply me with the pregnant woman. then another permanent came in 2 weeks after i work. she is new and u expect her to b like the pregnant woman? then u expect me to knw all the things that need to be done for abt 2 months when u don teach me more?

really don ever blame me~ 

The permanent were so fake. always take over my job. " u have so many things to do d, then i gt not much to things to do!!!!" when manager and pregnant woman is around then u like very good. but when they were not around then u ask me to do this and that.


BUTT IS TOO HEAVY
even when we both learn things from the pregnant woman, i sit beside the pregnant woman and she sit beside me. then the pregnant woman print things out and we need to go and take it as the pregnant woman sit inside. then u sit at outside, can just go and take but ur butt is so heavy until give me way to go out  and take the paper. wah! really tak boleh tahan.

Then when u wan to go and find anybody, u can just call or go down ma. noneed to do all sort of small action. ppl pregnant also go here and there. then u go to find ppl, u need to ask us who went out just now whether tht person is there o nt. " UR BUTT IS TOO HEAVY UNTIL CANNT WORK HIOR! "

SLOW LEARNER 
everytime also need to print screen and print all the paper out. always refer when need to run things out. Waste company's paper! then kesi kesi ask me hw to do it when she forgot hw to do. then i will always ask why first before i help her.



TRAINEE'S FAULT
Everything also trainee's fault. u all can not do wrong one. then knew that is nt trainee's fault d, still wan to accuse me. U gave me wrong info then i key in wrongly then is my fault la. when u gave me info, u will always say " follow wat i wrote". so i follow, and i am new, u got so many code then u expect me to remember it all? when i wan to note down then u said noneed 1, when u do longer time then u will know. then when i saw that it is nt my fault, i never accuse u in front of manager. i just pass the thing to u and let u c that it is your fault then u realise it. i give u face is because of u r senior. but when u ask the "butt too heavy" to key in then u still say tht it is my fault. wat the!  put paper at the wrong file, also is my fault. i never touch the paper also. then write at the wrong place also is my fault which is nt my hand writing.

when i do wrong then your tone is higher, then the "butt too heavy" do wrong, u talk nicely to her and ask her nt to do wrong!!!!

wat is going on in this world?!!!!!


i am nt a threat for u all but y u wan to attack me?

Honesty

i think i know wat did i care so much d.

"HONESTY"


maybe it is because of they said if got anything can always say out. then they said is because of we didnt ask then they didnt tell. if we ask then they will tell honestly. but when we ask more, they kept hiding from us. Now Question is back to" none of my business" again.


y would u wan to ask so much which ppl don really wan to tell u?
: Because i care about them

no, this is called Kaypo. u kaypo so much then make yourself so miserable.
: True! i am really miserable now~ has been stuck with this matter for quite sometimes and think abt it everyday.

So, don care so much. mb u think that this is care but for them, this might over the limit.
: mb also, coz this is still none of my business. i cant assume that they tell me honestly for all the thing that i ask. honest does not apply to everyone, and everything.

i mau siao liao!!!! sot d! y am i so stubborn abt it ler? i really don understand myself.

LET IT GO!

Friendship

Friends that u r close to, don need to act gentle in front of them
friends that u r close to, don need to care abt your words
friends that u r close to, u may share anything with them
friends that u r close to, u noneed to b fake in front of them
Friends that u r clsoe to, u r true to them

Saw From FB jz now...

i have been thinking abt it long time ago. i had decided not to care abt it and try to forget it. but it pops up in my head all the time recently.

i thought about it everyday, every hour that i am free. think abt it more than my dear.

i thought of not to think abt it and let times passed and it fades away. but it doesnt work at all.

i knew that it is none of my business and i shd b happy abt it. and i really do. but wat i cant let go is i dono how to face it.

i told my consultant abt that, she said if this happens to her, she also will angry. because we were so close friends. and she knew that i really care abt this friendship. and i really true to them eventhough we seldom hth talk. after that, i think it again. i feel that wat she said abt me is quite true also.

i never tell kelvin or anyone abt it because i knew that they will just simply ask me nt to think too much abt it. it is nt a matter at all. i also knw abt it. but y i am still struggling abt it.

i met kelvin last weekend in malacca, and we have been discussing abt all the trouble that we faced. then i told him abt it. he said i have to choose 1 way. coz i was undecided.

According to him, i knew that it is none of my business and i shdnt sad or struggle abt it deep in my heart. but when i am persuading myself to let go, i feel that it is nt right and i really cant accept it. so i keep on struggle between one another. so he advice me to choose 1 side then i wont struggle anymore. but i am still undecided until now.

do i need to talk about it seriously? but there is not important at all isnt it? as it is none of my business. but if really talk, then i can trust all the words?

i really dono. when i feel that i am close with a person then i dono y somehow will feel that wat they said is true or fake. i am nt sure whether it is true o not.

As i said before, i learn something that i have learnt 4 years ago.
which is " you treat ppl as very good friend, doesnt mean that they will think the same".

i really don deserve to have a real close friendship? or am i too stubborn?
will the ending be the same like 4 years ago? shd i give up to search for real close friend? will we being separated in future? on of my friend said that, we will b separated and nt close after we step in to working life.

will this come true? or is it whether it will really come true one day but we were too naive to trust that we wont?