I thought i have ready for negative

its been long time ago, i have ready to accept and also imagine many kind of situation tht i receive negative...

today, when talk abt the answer, i really don dare to knw abt it...
y ler...

i have prepared long time ago d...
but when come to the time, i really don dare to knw abt it...

i scare that if it is really negative, i dono hw to handle...

i hope tht i can spend more time with u, b4 the negative...
otherwise i don have excuse...

就算是只有未来的几天回忆，我还是希望我能开心的与你度过。。。
我真的好期待哦。。。
就算以后我们还是朋友，我还是想多留下一点只属于你和我的记忆

i hope tht u hurt me badly if the answer is negative, then i wont blame u that ur poison still with me... abo u will regret de...

ok la...
u can let me knw anytime as long as is face to face...
don ever ask me when d...
i am sure to b afraid 1st...
i am strong de, no matter hw, i can accept it...
yup! i can de!
( of coz i am nt hoping to get negative but still prepare to handle my sadness ma )
very mao dun also...
haha!

i also dono wat m i talking...
swt...