口是心非

i jz don undertand myself that y is it i always 口是心非, my mouth so 硬 towards the person that i really care ler....?
so swt of myself....
jz cant help myself abt this....
明明在乎就装作不在乎。。。
明明很想就装作不想，去掩饰自己。。。
haiz.. sick of myself....
even that person know that my attitude is like tht also don act like this ma...
haiz....