things that must do b4 sleep....

haha!
nowadays, sure have a person sing songs to me b4 i sleep. this is a MUST!
syok ler....
so cute?
yalo, coz i am cute ma, then he has to act cute to entertain me lo....
keep on sing n sing..... until this is a habit for him d.
everyday think of wat song to sing....
Haha!

2 weeks stuff

Wow, its been long time never blog here d.

Sorry la, i was busy with my sales.....
1st week, have free time....
2nd week, outdoor 5days...
Wow, Chinese event, i fall until ..... i also dono hw to describe....
my sales was 0,1,2. if nt mistaken 2 days 0, 2 days 1, 1 day 2.
i was gone crazy.....
face was so black, never talk at all after finish work n on the way bk to penang. kept thinking that why my sales was so bad....
why most of the ppl get 5,6 n even got 1 get 17 sales. aint human!!!
Who knows....
i cannt stand the failure....
my sales was so bad......
i jz couldnt undertand......
3rd week, chinese event at ipoh...
luckily i never go, i will die like shit....
ipoh really hard to do sales, luckily i was at penang.
chinese event in ipoh is wed until sat . within this 4 days, i have 16 sales.
if i went, i think nt more than 5. Phew !!

last day on chinese event, nobody sign but me.... tht 1 also is thomas give me de....
i felt so bad coz tht was nt my sales but i took it.
then after i go bk home, i talk with somebody....
my mood was so bad n keep on press down and keep it in the deepest of my heart....
don wna to think abt it...
but i jz cant...
manatau when talk on phone got ppl gatai, come to khek me.....
nt khek to make me jealous tht type....
then my heart suddenly connect with the harsh words....
oh no, i couldnt keep anymore.....
tears start to come out d.....

i wont cry n let ppl hear....
i wont cry in front of ppl....

so i request to hang up n the person was talking with me, felt so shock n strange....
but i really cannot d so he know i was going to cry then he hang up.....

manatau, after hang up, my brother havent sleep and know that my tears fall so since he know d, n i wont cry in front of him.... i tried to stop...
i stopped.....
after abt 5min, i have a friend called me to on9 n transfer video clip for him....
haiz.....
so i did nt cry lo.....
Strong Girl!!!!

Haha! somebody knew that he said sth wrong so he sms me....

" erm, know tat i say sth tat hurt u. very sorry bout tat. if feel like crying to release ur tension. just go 4 it. but mz remember tat u r not alone. still hv me bside u to stand up after a fall. feel sorry 4 not being a caring person. may b i cant help much. but at least wana let u know tat i alwez there 4 u when u nd a shade to protect urself. sorry sorry sorry. sleep earlier. dun think too much le. 9z. sorry :( must :) back ya. xneed reply. 9z.sorry "

wow......
haha!
i jeust don like ppl simply say sorry....
wat i wan is understanding nt simply sorry.
but ok la....

then after tht he sms me request to call me for a while...
Haha!
worry abt me ler.....
i am ok de, jz ppl worry abt me....
told u that i am strong d.....
after a long talk then hang up d lo.....
he has 2 study also ma.....
i really thanks that he talk so long with me but still i felt sorry coz distract him from study.....

after that i sleep d....

after he finish study, he sms me b4 he sleep....
" 1 2 tell u once more : sorry ! i just know tat i did really mind u a lot. feel damn lost when u r sad. u mean a lot to me. i really love u. dun be too stress le ya. i know its hard. but at least try ya.anything just find me ya. a should n a hand to console u when u r sad n lost. sleep tide. take care. "

Hey, thanks for being a listener, comforter for me....
its my pleasure to have u b by my side.....

hey, of coz u lost la..... siao siao..... i have my distraction de lo..... make use on u nia.....sikit sikit o anything happen to me , u also can qi siao d.....
siao siao.......
Haha!


here comes....
the next day, our team outdoor, so 6 days....
i was busy do my sales....
late reply o....
someone worry n call me d.....
keep on ask me whether i ok ma for the whole day n every call....
i felt that he noneed to b so worry la....
i am strong de ma....
sure can handle de....
but i also feel syok that he was so worry abt me....

after call, he sms : < honestly, i really syok n felt loving when he so worry abt me >

" u really scare tiok me. so late reply i tot u sad again le. worry. "

after that, the night b4 his exam, < his final start on 23 ma , so 22 have to prepare d.... 21 night thought that was last call until he finish final >

he went to hall study until late night lo...
then after bk, sms me b4 sleep....
haha! this is wat he has to do every night b4 he sleep....

" erm, wanna exam le. means cant talk long long with u thru phone le. honestly, feel very sad. < of coz la, my voice so sweet > must take good care of urself ya. must eat. must sleep early. must be careful when u do outdoor. dont be stress with ur sales. must drink more water. must be careful while riding o driving. n also must MISS ME! < xu yao jiang da ge capital ma... > Haha. keep tis msg o! all d must do thing is in here le. if feel like wanna find sb talk can find me too. can d. take care ya. muak muak muak! love u. 9z. "

haha, chang qi hoh.... i also feel that.... but this is care ma.....
i also beh phai ler....
i saw this msg in the next morning, then i sent my order with dont since his msg is must.

then at night, i sent bubble to him to encourage him o...
so sweet ler....
ai zai la....


on the 3rd day his exam week, he never have test la but was busy to study slide o....
then i dono he was so busy and i cant even get to contact with him....
summore that day i was sleepy, boring, n i felt that my colleague don like me wor... so feel bad lo....
then no sales wor....
then keep on msg n no reply wor....
call him summore no line wor....
keep on eat my money wor....
so he buta kena d lo.....
i sms n call until don wna to contact with him le....
then when he finish busy know that gai d....
tai wok....
he sms me that he going to call me in 15 min. but i replied, noneed le....
i knew that i wont pick up, jaz some kind of beh syok d gua. i knew that he was busy n i shldnt blame him in fact shouldnt disturb him for the whole week. i kept tell myself that have to b understanding, ppl busy ma.... but i jz cant keep. < sorry, for nt being a understanding person o >

after 15 min, he never call but he call after 30 min if nt mistaken.....
since i decide nt to pick up so i put silent for my 016 phone. he keep call until my phone b come low batt. 012 also but nt low batt la coz 016 already old ma, batt sot sot de.... then he sms me ask me to pick up n we need to talk wor....
i don wna to talk wor, in fact i have no mood to speak, n i know that if i hear his voice, my tears will automatic fall. but if i never pick up he will b very worry wor....
then he sms :
i know u feel damn bad now. but u can just keep quiet. pls ans my call. i need to talk to u. "

so he call again, i late pick up coz i thought of whether wan to pick up o nt.
finaly i pick up n hear wat he said.... he said i am angry of him but i never angry of him.really de.... mb i feel bad of myself that y am i wan to disturb him.....
then he told me that this is y he cant go long in previous r/s. sometimes he will be very busy until forget everything. this is long distances prob. after i heard abt this, i felt that i wan to sot sa d, i really scare i cant walk with him....
after a long talk, i sms him : let me think think 1st.... really make me lost....
after that he jz call me ask me nt to sot sa, cannot sot sa, canot x 6. he said he say more than 3 times cannot means really canot le....
< i also don wan to sot sa, but i jz scare, fear is there... >

after that, he sms me again....
" i dunno wat r u thinking la. but no matter how, i wont give up easily de. ya. take care. sms me when u bk. "

i never reply de, kept thinking after that i decide nt to think coz its jz wasting my time better do sales... so i was busy to do my sales.... i got 5 o....
when i free n felt ok d then i sms him....
Haha!!
i don really remember wat i said but i knw that i was talking abt i am the best in this world for him. then he knew that i am back to normal d.

after that when i come bk, after finish bath n sms him, he called n we talk....
ask him to hang up he don wan, after that he bankcrupt pula....
then i slept after the call lo...
< sorry for made u feel bad coz of my worries, i dont mean to do tat... >

again b4 he sleep, he sms me lo...
" no matter wat happen o how diff it s in d future, i wont give up ad coz i ad find tiok d best n ll take her with me 4ever. "

Syok le....

ytd night he told methat he going to come bk on fri and go bk again coz result out on 6th. Hehe.... i was so happy to hear that.... really 1.... then today when i went to office i talk bg lo, n also when on the way go to facial have to fetch tht bookworm go out ma since i go out wor, abo she will bcome mushroom d coz her pc go to hospital.so i told her also lo.... Hehe.....

after i go to office, arrange everything my father finish arrange schedule i had a look. sat i will b at tesco o, wa happy lo, dono he will come bk he said he will come la, but dono he will ocme on this sat bo....
then i felt strange sun pg team off wor. so i asked him abt tht. he said sun off lo, but mostly sun do sales 1 ma, then he pula said let u rest on sun u don wan, ok lo off on other day...
then i c the date 4th of may o....
haha! really make me extremely happy d. i will off on sun o.... tht ppl havent go bk o....then i go around tell ppl that i will off on sun o....
also thanks to my father la.....
Hehe.....
i wan to tell him abt it but i feel that better dont. when he bk only tell him. hehe!!!
happy si wo....

oh ya, got 1 day i qi siao d. i told him tht i love him for 2 o 3 times. Haha! sure lam sei him....

Lame guy....

today is my off day o!!!
i went to photo stat flyer for 200 copies. Wow!!!
kept highlight after i get home. until now i start to feel boring so i stop....

Something happened last night...
Somebody was moody coz of his friend.
if i have this kind of friend, i wont b tht close to them b coz i am a straight person so i can hurt ppl easily.

tht friend was a guy ler....
small gas, cant have fun, cant let ppl say something bad on him but he can....
i dont mean o criticize ur friend....
he did feel beh song if u say him then jz say sorry enough la...
he is a guy ler... so small gas...
if so easy tersinggung then he wont have a lot of friends.
n need u to keep on say sorry, pujuk him...jz like a girl

really de, as a good friend of him, i will suggest that u find 1 day to tell him everything la.
make him grow....
if girl then shd b reasonable la...
hey, guy ler...
come on!

later pujuk too much n this is nt all ur fault wat...
if he cant play then don say ppl la...
always tersinggung, need u to pujuk him bk like gf...

later something that is nt possible to happen n never and ever will happen de,
also will happen then gai d lo.....
that time friend pun can not be d lo...
sure u will avoid ma, coz u r nt tht kind of person.
thats y....


n hior if u need to pujuk him all the time, i will jealous de lo, don let me meet him
n his pattern come out lo....
i wont give him face de lo....
i have already ren, ren , n ren b4 i meet him lo....
if happen in front of me, i shoot him n wont lembut hati de lo
wat kind of guy....
ok la, have to stop d....
talk bad behind ppl nt good...

i was glad that god had arrange cong nt to accept ur calls. haha! then u told me about it. at least i have chance to share ur feelings.

Remember : i can b in any character when there is a reason for me to be there.
so, dont left me out of ur life.
i will always be there when u need me....
jz like wat u will do for me....

ok la, until here...

Speak out my Thoughts

Last night, after i have settle down i wanted to share my happiness with someone. but i knew that he was busy studying. i think and think about it. i don wan to distract him eh, but i really wan to share with him wor....
What to do?
so, we was sms-ing.
I sent bubble to him...
I acted very serious...

Ehem...
i have 1 question to ask u...
i need u to think it seriously...
...
...
can i call u?>


Haha! sure he laugh that time...

Then , i bought super saver bcoz if we talk for half an hour rm6 ler...
if super saver rm3 per hour.if talk half an hour also worth le...

So , i called we talk for 1 hour. then he called me abt another half an hour.
1st hour, we talk abt....
oh ya, his family knew that he wants to chase a girl and also know that which girl is it.
Wow, really made me shock!!!
Cant breath le...
But no need cpr...
Haha!
ok, he even told me that he want me to meet his parent, yi ma gu je, cousins....
i want to pengsan le.....
< happy that he said this coz this shows that he realy serious >
He never did this is b coz his ex stay in kedah...
which means this time i die le....
i stay in penang ler....
die le.....
Hope that nt so fast la ya....

he asked me nt to reject him str away when he propose wor....
coz is his 1st time propose face to face,
if i reject le o fool with him, his face will b come tomato
Haha!
Haha!
u c my personality ah....
sure will kacau him la....
haha! tht time my camera will b ready to take his tomato face...
Haha!
he also knew that i am so suei 1 la...
haha!
bo huat!

Then dono talk wat else le....

after finish 1 hour, he called back...
dono why somehow i was just in good mood,
i bla bla bla everything to him....
i told him that i was so shock that his opinion abt my make up on zy's bday celebration....
i told that i felt sth on that day but i ignore coz clhs student ler....
good student ler....
i am wat ler....
so i ignore lo..
Manatau after that we chat n chat in msn, then come to sms...
when he never realize that he start to crush on me, i already know le...
but then we never stop that, n continue....
after that crush b come like and .......slowly
That ppl hiao la, keep on come and keep hiong towards me....
then i cant help myself,
jiu fall in le.....
wan to pull also canot le....
< sure his tail qiao tht time >
Before i realize something, bee gaik told me that she thinks i like him d. but i ignore n say nt possible...
gou pan um hei...
manatau c, kong zong jor....

after that, my mum know that someone coming, she kept advise me nt to fall la, nt to on la, waste time, energy and money...sure break eh...
i ask my friends,
they scold me coz think too much...
u never give a chance to both of u, then pan4 si3 xing2 d...
dont have beginning mana ada process then mana ada end ler....

i told my cousin abt it...
she told me if his personality good, love you, treat u good then u also have same feelings towards him then start lo....

those senior citizen,
don waste time and energy la, sure break eh....
still young ko, after graduate only find also can...

sometimes, i think that whether he is the right one....
but this time i really fall le...
unlike my past, after together only start to fall....

Hw?

i even told him that i went to church on sat night. when came to worship, i kept sing and sing after that i felt that i wna to talk to god....

i told god that:
God, give me strength pls if i commit to this relationship...
i really like him, i cant help myself to get up d...
i want to commit with him.....
god, pls give me strength,
i really lost i dono whether i will accept him o nt...
i dono whether we will cross over this long distance o nt...
i really need your support...
n also my studies,
help me nt to let this interrupt my studies...


i told him that since he already has plan means he want to start with me no matter where will i go lo...
he said yes..
good! he said no matter where i go also long distance and if after 4 years he will b busy in hospital and that time might come bk when cny only also.

after he know my thoughts, i think he really satisfied lo, catch dao le lo...

i am sorry that i distract u from study.i don want to discuss all this at this time de coz u need to study ma....

after that, i sent 5 pages eh sms for him....
i dont really remember so much la, i had delete the msg also.
i remember i said sorry to him and don want to tell him nw n also never wan to to tell him coz i don wan him to catch my heart, once he know he will think that he get le... caught dao le....
then get easily...
as he said, boys wont appreciate if he get easily.


then he replied : < this i am sure to save it de >
ok, as i said, i never treat u as a disturbance 4 me. Serious. Not at all. Its nice to know wat u think also ma. When i really like u, i wont let u go away easily de. I will appreciate de.< i str away sent sms to shoot him. Haha! : i havent finish read but u really make me laugh. Haha! > Just want to tell u tat even i may look like immature o not serious sometime, but i really mind u d. Coz i love you. Just feel free to 2 find me when u nd my ear o shoulder. Late le, u also sleep le. Dun stay too late. Not good. Remember, u r not my obstacle at all ya. Sleep tide la. 1st time to type tis 3 words to u, i love you.Muak. 9z.


Manatau he replied bk :
Laugh laugh laugh! i serious u laugh! haiz.

Hehe....
i really know de la....

i reply him lo : < use his words. Haha! >
ok, even i m nt serious n laugh bt i understand de. even sometimes i look immature n nt serious also bt deep in my heart n mind, i really know de. < since he got 3 words, i also zheng2 gu2 him > 1st time, type ths 3 words...











i like u!

Haha! don wan s fast n s clear ko.






like that la, this is last night de story. Sorry if don un, coz have mandarin and cantonese eh...

Web Solutions Provider

As i said b4, last month i have 2 boss...
i quit from 1 company but i left 1 which is web solution provider.

i choose to help my boss to design website n also part time sales....
But mostly design la....

So far , i have completed 3 website...

www.is-passion.com
www.amazing2008.com
www.coremedsb.com

it seems easy but for beginner like me, don have any knowledge abt these kind of stuff de....
Wow, really took a lot of time.

i do have commission for these...

Now my boss ask me to write a manual book for him to explain on how to use our sitebuilder. He lazy to explain too much and also this book will give to customer so they can easily update their website in the future.

Since he will be busy of his customization, so i help him to complete this manual book lo. It's my pleasure...

i have chance to write a book also ler...
and a lot of ppl will know, read and even use...
Wow, geng!
Haha!
but the only things that make me worry is my grammar. So, i have to find friends to help me correct my grammar....
Hehe.....

ok la, this is something about web design job.

Astro Sales Promoter

Yesterday was the 1st day i worked as astro sales promoter.
Brand new job...
Most ppl think that sales is hard to do, this is real
but also many ppl prove that sales can earn a lot of money

i have interest to do sales after i have met Mybonuswin boss. i m sorry that when it comes to b his sales person, i rejected.Why? nt safe....

I chose astro because i wont b alone all the way when i sales my stuff.
i won't feel lost.

my 1st day, at least i can get 1 activation, i never ciak sua. but i felt nt enough...
so i really hope that i can make it 5 o 6 activation tomoro....

i never felt tired but boring.....
i start to work at 4 like that even i reach there at 3.

kept ask ppl wan to subscribe astro o nt....
most ppl will jz say they have...
this is normal...
some ppl said no...
i never tell yt...
never mind take it as challenge....
otherwise i cant grow in sales.....


this is about my job....

New Hp!!!!

Wow, i was so excited!!!!
i have my new hp now!
i am still using the old one!
which means i have 2 mobile phone on the line!
yesterday, i went to banking my cheque with sir b coz i dono hw to go to the bank.
after i banking, he fetch me bk and i straight away head to gurney to buy my new phone.

so i jz called up tht bookworm , Ming Wah bcoz she called me yesterday morning to accompany her buy her glossary. so, she has to prepare in 30 min for me to reach her place to fetch her.

when i reach gurney, i took my money from atm then search for my phone. when i went to tht shop, they told me tht old of stock and nt gonna out d. i was OH MY GOD!!!!!
hw could this happen to me!!!!!!
i have made up my mind. CANNT!!!
no matter hw i muz buy my phone by today.
i search for tht phone everywhere...
most of the shop tell me that no stock....
luckily god sense my will, so i found.
but really out of my budget.
b4 tht i search is 860 with 1gb m.s
nw i have to pay 960.
ahhhh!
i have to decide to buy another which cheaper.
i wan a 3g phone but without memory stick and nt over 1k.
so i have only that choice. the phone that i wanted to buy.
Z610i!!!!!
i bought it le....
black color!!!!
i was so cacat when i 1st use the phone.
but nw ok d
i am still exxcited le....
thanks that ming wah accompany me o!
tell u wat, to mix with me, u will b more crazy...

mostly when i qi siao, i will ask u hang out with me out of the sudden de....
haha!
ok, today until here la....
i wna to play with my new mobile phone le.....


Z610i!!!

Greedy but Stingy

ok, jz this morning means last night lo...

dono y i called someone and chat for 40 min then tht someone call bk for 8 min.
along the chat, i don really remember what had we talk but i am surely will remember something which make me decide to blog it here.....

someone said ' i miss you '
' i love you '

i was so syok, but pai seh la, i laugh.

i really felt utility max but i never say anything.
HAha!

but b4 end our talk, i told him tht i will miss him de.....
he was going to fly...
Haha!

i don't wnat to reply so fast la....
greedy hoh, wan to hear but stingy to say....
Hehe....
ok la, until here....
c ya

Found Job But Nightmare

i found job le.....
finally i was jz jobless for 1 day....
i will work for astro as sales promoter.....
i will go to work later at 4pm, tesco.
cant wait to try new job
and
will have ppl at there with me to lead me....

But i have got a big problem here....
my mum don let me go there to work....
hw am i going to get out n work ler....
no matter hw i am sure to go....
i wan to try....
if everything my parents arrange i cant try anymore
and jz stay inside a cage and very well protect.
i dont want lo....
i've follow ur wills nt to work for my boss
nw ask me to stop work and go to attend courses to prepare for uni life?
no way.....
ur daughter need money....
i wna to earn more so that i can afford my expenses by myself.
otherwise, i cant spend if only hope for my parents....
they will b abandon lo....
i will jz work for 2 months...
nw nt 2 months also, less than tht....
after that i will quit...
i really wna to work at there.....!!!!!!!