What ShOulD I Do?

虽然他不再跟我联络,
我也对他很失望,
也决定我不要睬他直到他主动跟我谈天,
可是他就是还在我心里........
放弃他真的那么难吗?
还是我还不想放弃他?

虽然现在我能很专心地求上进,
有时我还会想起他.......
一下子而已啦........

开学了,
我还是每天都上网,
放着也好,
好让他会想要留言,或 nudge 我,
可是等了这么多天,
都没有.............

他快要去kl 念书了,
应该是这星期日早上吧...........

我真的好想我们好像以前一样,
可能我需要等他主动吧........
毕竟每次都是我,
可是我要等到几时?
我真的想见他,
在他还没去kl前,
可是没有可能的啦,
他心里只有她..................

怎么办?
我好想念他...............


i feel that i want to chat with him but he lie to me before and i feel that he shouldn't do that.
moreover every time also i am the one who start the talk and maybe he won't reply me too.
i really hope that i can meet him or just see him again before he go to kl....
but i think he won't because all his heart is with her and he just care of her and might just do not know how to face me.
what should i do?
i do miss him.......

now i really can concentrate on my studies and just sometimes think of him.........
sometimes i really angry of myself that why i still can have feeling on him.........
haiz........
Father, what should i do? i hope that you do help me...........
thank you , father...
I pray in Jesus name, AMEN!