Extreme But Moody

Father, i just did what i should be done last year.i told him about how i feel again. its really took a lot of encourage, brave, faith, calm to tell him again. but i just start at the beginning, he appear offline to me. but i just don't care and just continue all my words. i do not know how he feel maybe shock but i really do not know why i am upset.

Now i think about the negative.i should give up today. i though of give up but at last i still try. now ended up i do not know where to go. Father, i am lost. Can u lead me to the way out? If he really reject me again, my heart will really breakaway. i never like somebody for so long and no matter i have how many boyfriend, he is still in my heart. i just do not know why he is still there in the bottom of my heart.

Father, u do know that i break up with my boyfriend is not because of him. just don't let him think that. please.... our break up is our problem not because of him. Father, i really moody and feel like don't want to talk. If ask me to try again, i really don't have the encourage to go for it unless you're with me. Father, he is also your son. Is it that he don't ever like me or he already has another target?

Father, when will i get the answer if after this holiday, i really or do know that no hope already. i won;t dare to try next time........

Father, i do pray hard about it. I don't hope that he scare of me but to accept me at least just a try. Father, please help me.............

Pray in Jesus name, AMEN!