FriEnD

I just don't know what to write it as title. I just want to spead it all out. I just back from my cg and like normal. When i on msn, my ex bf send message to me and talk to me. I joking with him but he don't like it. And it is just joking what. Just don't know why. Anyway its fine. But he got angry about it and tell me not to act like i know him and not to talk private thing and just say if i continue that the friendship is not going to work out. Hey, i know you for more than 2 years d and sometimes i know, so just say it out but how i know that you mind. I really get angry about it that you are like can not make jokes. I was like want to pop out the anger and all the bad feeling but i just can't. Then you tell me you try your best to treat me as friend. At first, i was thinking that if u can't then just forget it. I don't mind. But after that i think i just give you a chance and both of us a chance to work out our friendship. Somemore i think about what you told me on the moment we break up. You said we are going to be best friend and you will treat me like last time. This is all fake. You can't do it and why you want to promise me? I just can't take it. My heart really like not feeling well. I wish that i never know you before. How are you, who you are.... And start to know you now but God won't take all this out of my mind because from the beginning of our relationship till the end, God want to make me mature through this relationship. AAAHHHhhhhh...... i just want to scream it out. God, please let me go, let me forget what he is like before so that we will be friend back. AAHHHhhhhh........... i don't know, just let it go naturally.